Feeling sick. Spent most of the day either sitting in front of the computer trying to work on my Brit Lit exam or on the couch with the kiddos.
No work out today.
Felt nauseous, so I didn't eat much dinner.
Sorry, not much to say today. Hopefully better tomorrow.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Honey Nut Cheerios
1 piece of Sourdough toast with butter and jelly
1 banana
Lunch:
Two burger patties with A1--no bun
Snack:
1 piece of leftover cake
A handful of Almonds
Dinner:
2 helpings of homemade applesauce
Probably not enough water today, but I really feel incredibly ill. Ugh. I hate this. See you tomorrow.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Day 20.
Today was Matt's birthday party. And it was pretty successful, I think. Sure, he woke up from his nap in a crappy mood and screamed his head off for about 45 minutes but he eventually came around.
The coolest thing was the Yo Gabba Gabba cake. It was seriously awesome. The layer of frosting on it was intense. Matt certainly enjoyed it. And the olives. That was his entire dinner. He's 2. And, given his mood, I'm stoked that he ate anything.
Both he and Lilly are sick. There might have to be a doctor's visit this week. I hate when the kiddos are sick. It makes me feel bad.
But, in between getting ready for the party, Vanessa and I hit the Rec and I did 30 minutes on the Eliptibike and then a bunch of weight stuff on machines but also with free weights. I feel like we worked every muscle possible, but Vanessa would probably argue that. I definitely feel more comfortable with the weight machines at the Rec. The stuff at Youngstown isn't familiar looking and there are way more people around, which I don't like.
We'll see though. Apparently if I don't do some weight training as well I'll end up being one of those skinny people that looks like they should be a fat person. And I'd like to look like a healthy person. So. Weight training too, now. Yaaay.
That was sarcasm.
I didn't eat super well today, but it was a party day. I prepped for the cake by taking an extra ActoplusMet pill for my Diabetes. Doctor said that this was OK to do. We talked about upping the dose to three a day anyway, but we decided to hold off for whatever reason. We actually means He. I just go along with what he says.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Kix with milk
2 pieces of Whole Wheat toast with butter and jelly
1/2 a banana
Lunch:
1/2 of a turkey, ham and cheese sandwich on Sour Dough with cheese and mustard
Dinner:
1 burger with onions, pickles, cheese and hot sauce
1 hot dog with mustard, onions and baked beans
Mac N Cheese
a bunch of random veggies
random chips
1 glass of Fresca
1 piece of cake with some No Sugar Added Butter Pecan Ice Cream
Also, a cup of Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake yogurt.
Does anyone want to pay for me to get a membership at the Rec? Please?
The coolest thing was the Yo Gabba Gabba cake. It was seriously awesome. The layer of frosting on it was intense. Matt certainly enjoyed it. And the olives. That was his entire dinner. He's 2. And, given his mood, I'm stoked that he ate anything.
Both he and Lilly are sick. There might have to be a doctor's visit this week. I hate when the kiddos are sick. It makes me feel bad.
But, in between getting ready for the party, Vanessa and I hit the Rec and I did 30 minutes on the Eliptibike and then a bunch of weight stuff on machines but also with free weights. I feel like we worked every muscle possible, but Vanessa would probably argue that. I definitely feel more comfortable with the weight machines at the Rec. The stuff at Youngstown isn't familiar looking and there are way more people around, which I don't like.
We'll see though. Apparently if I don't do some weight training as well I'll end up being one of those skinny people that looks like they should be a fat person. And I'd like to look like a healthy person. So. Weight training too, now. Yaaay.
That was sarcasm.
I didn't eat super well today, but it was a party day. I prepped for the cake by taking an extra ActoplusMet pill for my Diabetes. Doctor said that this was OK to do. We talked about upping the dose to three a day anyway, but we decided to hold off for whatever reason. We actually means He. I just go along with what he says.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Kix with milk
2 pieces of Whole Wheat toast with butter and jelly
1/2 a banana
Lunch:
1/2 of a turkey, ham and cheese sandwich on Sour Dough with cheese and mustard
Dinner:
1 burger with onions, pickles, cheese and hot sauce
1 hot dog with mustard, onions and baked beans
Mac N Cheese
a bunch of random veggies
random chips
1 glass of Fresca
1 piece of cake with some No Sugar Added Butter Pecan Ice Cream
Also, a cup of Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake yogurt.
Does anyone want to pay for me to get a membership at the Rec? Please?
Friday, February 26, 2010
Day 19.
I totally caved today.
I was making Mac N Cheese for Matt's birthday dinner tomorrow (also having hot dogs, hamburgers and baked beans--he's 2) and I was grabbing something out of the fridge when I see a red container. Inside that red container is leftover Coconut Icing. And I helped myself to some. Three deliciously evil spoonfuls.
It was so bad that it was gooooooooooooooooooooood. Like, WOW, good.
And we're having cake tomorrow because we're having a party. I know, I know--it's OK to have treats. I'm doing well otherwise, right? Right. No freaking out.
It was seriously awesome, though. Back in the day, I totally used to eat half a jar of frosting without thinking twice. I was a fat kid's fat kid. I could teach you things about being fat and how to maintain that fatness. (No Reese's Cups? Just put peanut butter in a bowl with some chocolate chips. Just as good. Maybe better because there isn't all of that work to get the wrapper off.)
That is the past though, right? Right.
65 minutes on the hell machine was all I managed today. We had a lot to do for the party so I needed to get home kind of quickly. I also forgot a pair of socks to change into, which really grossed me out. But I survived.
Breakfast:
3 egg whites + 1 yolk with hot sauce
2 pieces of turkey bacon
1 piece of Oatmeal Bread toast with butter
1/2 a banana
Lunch:
Some Vegan Oat health bar thing that was surprisingly good--like a REALLY heavy, thick oatmeal cake.
A handful of Habanero BBQ Almonds
Dinner:
Chipotle Burrito bowl, beans, chicken, tomato, green and corn salsa with lettuce and cheese. No rice.
A couple spoonfuls of Mac N Cheese (to make sure it tasted OK)
Had some more almonds while watching Lost. And a metric crapton of water.
Probably going to try and go to the Tallmadge Rec early-ish tomorrow morning so I can get a good workout before the party.
See you tomorrow.
I was making Mac N Cheese for Matt's birthday dinner tomorrow (also having hot dogs, hamburgers and baked beans--he's 2) and I was grabbing something out of the fridge when I see a red container. Inside that red container is leftover Coconut Icing. And I helped myself to some. Three deliciously evil spoonfuls.
It was so bad that it was gooooooooooooooooooooood. Like, WOW, good.
And we're having cake tomorrow because we're having a party. I know, I know--it's OK to have treats. I'm doing well otherwise, right? Right. No freaking out.
It was seriously awesome, though. Back in the day, I totally used to eat half a jar of frosting without thinking twice. I was a fat kid's fat kid. I could teach you things about being fat and how to maintain that fatness. (No Reese's Cups? Just put peanut butter in a bowl with some chocolate chips. Just as good. Maybe better because there isn't all of that work to get the wrapper off.)
That is the past though, right? Right.
65 minutes on the hell machine was all I managed today. We had a lot to do for the party so I needed to get home kind of quickly. I also forgot a pair of socks to change into, which really grossed me out. But I survived.
Breakfast:
3 egg whites + 1 yolk with hot sauce
2 pieces of turkey bacon
1 piece of Oatmeal Bread toast with butter
1/2 a banana
Lunch:
Some Vegan Oat health bar thing that was surprisingly good--like a REALLY heavy, thick oatmeal cake.
A handful of Habanero BBQ Almonds
Dinner:
Chipotle Burrito bowl, beans, chicken, tomato, green and corn salsa with lettuce and cheese. No rice.
A couple spoonfuls of Mac N Cheese (to make sure it tasted OK)
Had some more almonds while watching Lost. And a metric crapton of water.
Probably going to try and go to the Tallmadge Rec early-ish tomorrow morning so I can get a good workout before the party.
See you tomorrow.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Day 18.
I am often petrified that I will post the wrong date in my post title. Is that weird?
Do you ever do something that you absolutely know you are going to regret later? Today, I did exactly that. I did 65 minutes on the Hell Machine. Yes. For real. 65 minutes. Hell Machine. I totally kicked the crap out of that thing.
Or vice versa. We shall see.
Also signed up to speak to a nutritionist. I figured that was probably a good idea.
Short post tonight. Very tired. See you tomorrow.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch with Milk
1 piece of Oatmeal Bread toast with butter and jelly
Possibly a banana
Lunch:
Tuna with 1/2 tbs of mayo and Old bay seasoning
2 servings of Triscuits
1 carrot, sliced into sticks
1 apple
a bunch of Almonds (probably too many)
Dinner:
Leftover rice and beans with leftover chicken and spiced with DOYLE WOLFGANG VON FRANKENSTEIN'S HOT SAUCE FROM HELL (Which was really good. It was definitely hot but had awesome flavor. Reminded me of Louisiana Licker's sauce from Quaker Steak and Lube, but waaaaaaay hotter. I liked it.)
Some weird yogurt with a bunch of protein (like 12g!)
A bunch of water. The end.
Do you ever do something that you absolutely know you are going to regret later? Today, I did exactly that. I did 65 minutes on the Hell Machine. Yes. For real. 65 minutes. Hell Machine. I totally kicked the crap out of that thing.
Or vice versa. We shall see.
Also signed up to speak to a nutritionist. I figured that was probably a good idea.
Short post tonight. Very tired. See you tomorrow.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch with Milk
1 piece of Oatmeal Bread toast with butter and jelly
Possibly a banana
Lunch:
Tuna with 1/2 tbs of mayo and Old bay seasoning
2 servings of Triscuits
1 carrot, sliced into sticks
1 apple
a bunch of Almonds (probably too many)
Dinner:
Leftover rice and beans with leftover chicken and spiced with DOYLE WOLFGANG VON FRANKENSTEIN'S HOT SAUCE FROM HELL (Which was really good. It was definitely hot but had awesome flavor. Reminded me of Louisiana Licker's sauce from Quaker Steak and Lube, but waaaaaaay hotter. I liked it.)
Some weird yogurt with a bunch of protein (like 12g!)
A bunch of water. The end.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Day 17.
Bree, I hope you don't mind that I'm calling you out, but I totally thought I clicked the "Readers are not allowed to be critical of me because I am fragile" button. It appears that I was wrong.
No, seriously, I appreciate the critical comments. Mostly because I have no idea what I'm doing. Which is why I started this blog. For advice and critiques as well as "Good job!" Advice and critiques are more valuable than praise.
And you're absolutely right about the Carbs. The problem is that CARBS ARE IN EVERYTHING. Fruit has carbs. A lot of carbs. Like a WTF amount. I know that there are good carbs and bad carbs but I don't know the difference. Also, carbs equals comfort. Has a sandwich ever assaulted you? No. More than likely a sandwich has made you feel better in some small way because that is what a sandwich does. Had a craptastic day? Peanut butter, banana and honey on white bread with a tall glass of milk and suddenly everything seems A-OK.
But yesterday's three and a half pieces of toast was ridiculous and I knew that at the time. So, yes, carbs are on the radar, trust me. If you have advice on getting more protein into my diet, please advise.
To which I add: today, I ate tuna. I fucking hate tuna. I'm trying to keep the swearing to a minimum here for maximum readability and appeal but I really cannot emphasize this enough: I. FUCKING. HATE. TUNA. The smell of it makes me vaguely nauseous and tuna noodle casserole is the worst combination of two atrocities ever (tuna and cream of mushroom soup, somethings else that IFH™).
But today, I sucked it up and ate a can of tuna. I needed some protein in my diet. I drained as much of that nasty "water" as humanly possible, sprinkled some Lemon Pepper seasoning on it and threw in a tiny bit of mayo. Ate it on top of some Triscuits. And?
Not the worst thing ever. I don't love it, but it has potential. This is cheap tuna so maybe if I upgrade and get the $1.10 can instead of the $.38 can the flavor will be better. Only time will tell.
The Hell Machine returned today. And I killed 15 minutes on that sumbitch (I know, I just said that I was trying to keep my swearing to a minimum, but I love that word). 15 incredibly difficult minutes that were well worth it. I also tried a machine that looked like a really old Eliptibike but was not. It seemed to have the exact same function, but burned was not worth the effort it took to work. At least in a calorie-burning context. I don't know. We'll see how sore I am tomorrow before I banish it. 15 on that machine (it was a Cross Trainer, officially) and 50 on the treadmill. If I can work my way up on the Hell Machine, I will cut back on the treadmill. Because that makes sense.
Breakfast:
3 egg whites + 1 yolk scrambled with hot sauce, cooked in Pam
2 pieces of Turkey Bacon
1 piece of Oatmeal bread
(This was a tasty breakfast. I'm having a new love affair with hot sauce. My Doyle Wolfgang Von Frankenstein Hell Sauce might not just be a shelf oddity anymore...)
Lunch:
1 can of Tuna with Lemon pepper seasoning and 1/2 tbs. of mayo
A number of Triscuits (I should have counted, but did not)
1 whole carrot, sliced into sticks
Dinner:
Half (?) of a chicken breast, marinated in something (not sure what, it was set up last night when I wasn't home)
Salad with 8 kinds of lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, Mung Bean sprouts, a little cheese and Italian dressing
Brown rice with Black beans
LOTS of water today. I peed so freaking much.
See you tomorrow.
No, seriously, I appreciate the critical comments. Mostly because I have no idea what I'm doing. Which is why I started this blog. For advice and critiques as well as "Good job!" Advice and critiques are more valuable than praise.
And you're absolutely right about the Carbs. The problem is that CARBS ARE IN EVERYTHING. Fruit has carbs. A lot of carbs. Like a WTF amount. I know that there are good carbs and bad carbs but I don't know the difference. Also, carbs equals comfort. Has a sandwich ever assaulted you? No. More than likely a sandwich has made you feel better in some small way because that is what a sandwich does. Had a craptastic day? Peanut butter, banana and honey on white bread with a tall glass of milk and suddenly everything seems A-OK.
But yesterday's three and a half pieces of toast was ridiculous and I knew that at the time. So, yes, carbs are on the radar, trust me. If you have advice on getting more protein into my diet, please advise.
To which I add: today, I ate tuna. I fucking hate tuna. I'm trying to keep the swearing to a minimum here for maximum readability and appeal but I really cannot emphasize this enough: I. FUCKING. HATE. TUNA. The smell of it makes me vaguely nauseous and tuna noodle casserole is the worst combination of two atrocities ever (tuna and cream of mushroom soup, somethings else that IFH™).
But today, I sucked it up and ate a can of tuna. I needed some protein in my diet. I drained as much of that nasty "water" as humanly possible, sprinkled some Lemon Pepper seasoning on it and threw in a tiny bit of mayo. Ate it on top of some Triscuits. And?
Not the worst thing ever. I don't love it, but it has potential. This is cheap tuna so maybe if I upgrade and get the $1.10 can instead of the $.38 can the flavor will be better. Only time will tell.
The Hell Machine returned today. And I killed 15 minutes on that sumbitch (I know, I just said that I was trying to keep my swearing to a minimum, but I love that word). 15 incredibly difficult minutes that were well worth it. I also tried a machine that looked like a really old Eliptibike but was not. It seemed to have the exact same function, but burned was not worth the effort it took to work. At least in a calorie-burning context. I don't know. We'll see how sore I am tomorrow before I banish it. 15 on that machine (it was a Cross Trainer, officially) and 50 on the treadmill. If I can work my way up on the Hell Machine, I will cut back on the treadmill. Because that makes sense.
Breakfast:
3 egg whites + 1 yolk scrambled with hot sauce, cooked in Pam
2 pieces of Turkey Bacon
1 piece of Oatmeal bread
(This was a tasty breakfast. I'm having a new love affair with hot sauce. My Doyle Wolfgang Von Frankenstein Hell Sauce might not just be a shelf oddity anymore...)
Lunch:
1 can of Tuna with Lemon pepper seasoning and 1/2 tbs. of mayo
A number of Triscuits (I should have counted, but did not)
1 whole carrot, sliced into sticks
Dinner:
Half (?) of a chicken breast, marinated in something (not sure what, it was set up last night when I wasn't home)
Salad with 8 kinds of lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, Mung Bean sprouts, a little cheese and Italian dressing
Brown rice with Black beans
LOTS of water today. I peed so freaking much.
See you tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Day 16.
Dear Anonymous,
If you're still out there, here is a story about the scale. Yesterday I weighed in at 278, one pound up from last week. Today I weighed in at 274, four pounds down. I did not starve myself, nor did I work out extra hard. It was the exact same scale. I do not understand it, nor do I care. Like I said, the scale is not the best indicator of your success. The way that you feel, the way you look and the way that your clothes fit are much better.
That said, I feel like crap. I know that I've been complaining about this cold for three days and believe me, I would love to stop complaining. But it would have to go away first.
I tried a different elliptical at the gym today. It was awful. Because I felt like I was running. It was much more difficult than the regular elliptical which is why from here on out, I will call it the Hell Machine. I last five minutes. With a break in the middle.
All told, I did 50 on the treadmill, 5 on the Hell Machine, 25 on the bike and 15 on the elliptical. I'm really beginning to consider kicking the bike from the routine. I did the same amount of calories in half the time on the elliptical. Then again, I like the bike because I can sit down. But it also makes my ass hurt because those seats are not padded at all.
Dilemma.
Breakfast:
2 servings Cheerios Crunch
2 pieces of 100% Whole Wheat toast with butter and Strawberry Jam
1 banana
Lunch:
1 moderately tasty Buffalo Chicken Wrap with lettuce, tomato, cheese (too much), hot sauce and ranch dressing (this was a pretty average wrap--I should have made the trek to UPie)
2 Clausen pickle spears
1/2 a Pear
A handful of carrots
1 banana
1 cup of Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake Yogurt
Dinner
2 servings of Kix cereal with milk
1 1/2 pieces of Cinnamon toast with butter
(I was too indecisive about what to have for dinner and this ultimately won out because it was the easiest. Even then it was kind of a pain in the ass... I was not feeling today.)
See you tomorrow.
If you're still out there, here is a story about the scale. Yesterday I weighed in at 278, one pound up from last week. Today I weighed in at 274, four pounds down. I did not starve myself, nor did I work out extra hard. It was the exact same scale. I do not understand it, nor do I care. Like I said, the scale is not the best indicator of your success. The way that you feel, the way you look and the way that your clothes fit are much better.
That said, I feel like crap. I know that I've been complaining about this cold for three days and believe me, I would love to stop complaining. But it would have to go away first.
I tried a different elliptical at the gym today. It was awful. Because I felt like I was running. It was much more difficult than the regular elliptical which is why from here on out, I will call it the Hell Machine. I last five minutes. With a break in the middle.
All told, I did 50 on the treadmill, 5 on the Hell Machine, 25 on the bike and 15 on the elliptical. I'm really beginning to consider kicking the bike from the routine. I did the same amount of calories in half the time on the elliptical. Then again, I like the bike because I can sit down. But it also makes my ass hurt because those seats are not padded at all.
Dilemma.
Breakfast:
2 servings Cheerios Crunch
2 pieces of 100% Whole Wheat toast with butter and Strawberry Jam
1 banana
Lunch:
1 moderately tasty Buffalo Chicken Wrap with lettuce, tomato, cheese (too much), hot sauce and ranch dressing (this was a pretty average wrap--I should have made the trek to UPie)
2 Clausen pickle spears
1/2 a Pear
A handful of carrots
1 banana
1 cup of Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake Yogurt
Dinner
2 servings of Kix cereal with milk
1 1/2 pieces of Cinnamon toast with butter
(I was too indecisive about what to have for dinner and this ultimately won out because it was the easiest. Even then it was kind of a pain in the ass... I was not feeling today.)
See you tomorrow.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Day 15.
HEAD COLDS SUCK. I constantly feel like I have snot draining out of my nose, but when I blow or wipe, there is nothing there. My throat feels raw and everything tastes terrible.
But otherwise, everything is OK. Came straight home from school, no gym time there today, because Vanessa had a late meeting and my mom had something going on in the afternoon with Krissy and couldn't take the kids. So I got to spend the afternoon with them. It was pretty dope. They were good and let me work on my Senior Seminar paper and then we got to hang out before dinner. And I got to goof off while they played. It was a fun, vaguely full afternoon. It was really nice.
My mom made dinner, which was spaghetti bake, and Lilly made a giant mess out of herself. She looked like this:
After hosing the kids off (seriously, I considered changing the bath water after scrubbing Lilly down), I read them "If You Give a Pig a Party" and put them in bed. Then I hit the treadmill for 45, messing with the incline and doing some hand weights while watching the first season of 30 Rock. With the cold, I really didn't want to, but I did it.
Weighed in at 278, which is a pound up. I'm not gonna freak, because I figure that it is probably muscle. In fact, I know it is because my tight pants are feeling less tight in the waist. Progress! But dropping a pound or two for next week would be nice.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch
2 pieces of 100% Whole Wheat toast with butter and Raspberry Jelly
1 cup of hot tea
Lunch:
Leftover House of Hunan 3 Cup Chicken
1 freezer Egg Roll with Spicy Thai sauce
Dinner:
Spaghetti bake with a piece of veal and WAAAAY too much cheese
Salad with carrots and Italian dressing
Snack:
a pear
LOTS of hot tea today. Hopefully it was caffeine free so that I can sleep tonight. Of course, there will probably be NyQuil in my very near future.
See you tomorrow.
But otherwise, everything is OK. Came straight home from school, no gym time there today, because Vanessa had a late meeting and my mom had something going on in the afternoon with Krissy and couldn't take the kids. So I got to spend the afternoon with them. It was pretty dope. They were good and let me work on my Senior Seminar paper and then we got to hang out before dinner. And I got to goof off while they played. It was a fun, vaguely full afternoon. It was really nice.
My mom made dinner, which was spaghetti bake, and Lilly made a giant mess out of herself. She looked like this:
After hosing the kids off (seriously, I considered changing the bath water after scrubbing Lilly down), I read them "If You Give a Pig a Party" and put them in bed. Then I hit the treadmill for 45, messing with the incline and doing some hand weights while watching the first season of 30 Rock. With the cold, I really didn't want to, but I did it.
Weighed in at 278, which is a pound up. I'm not gonna freak, because I figure that it is probably muscle. In fact, I know it is because my tight pants are feeling less tight in the waist. Progress! But dropping a pound or two for next week would be nice.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch
2 pieces of 100% Whole Wheat toast with butter and Raspberry Jelly
1 cup of hot tea
Lunch:
Leftover House of Hunan 3 Cup Chicken
1 freezer Egg Roll with Spicy Thai sauce
Dinner:
Spaghetti bake with a piece of veal and WAAAAY too much cheese
Salad with carrots and Italian dressing
Snack:
a pear
LOTS of hot tea today. Hopefully it was caffeine free so that I can sleep tonight. Of course, there will probably be NyQuil in my very near future.
See you tomorrow.
A letter!
Anonymous posted this:
I've just stumbled across your blog. How often are you getting weighed? How did you get started with regards to your will-power? Any strategies that worked? I crave sugar... cannot seem to get through the day without it.
Well Anonymous, those are great questions. I'm no expert, but here are my answers. I weigh myself officially once a week. However, I do jump on the scale pretty frequently just to check in. And really, I find that the scale isn't an accurate measure of success. Because I might have busted my ass the week before and eaten almost nothing and GAINED weight. That would be because I'm converting flab to muscle.
A better indicator of success would be my jeans that are normally just a hair tight suddenly being not too tight. Or one of my t-shirts flapping around more than normal.
Does that make sense? The scale is nice, but not totally accurate.
Will-power? Shit, I haven't figured that one out yet. Luckily (depending on how you look at it), I tend to have an obsessive personality; when I get into something, I get into it full bore, no restraint. If I decide to collect rare stamps tomorrow, I'm going to have the best rare stamp collection around. As far as weight loss and diet, I HAVE to do this. And I beat myself up pretty bad when I "break" the diet or whatever.
Everything that I've read says to make small adjustments. Find ways to feed your sweet tooth in other ways. The peanut butter and graham cracker snack helps me because it is sweet and salty and crunchy. It might be on the higher calorie end, but it has protein and is still better for me than a Snickers. Fiber One bars actually taste pretty good and they're not that bad for you either. As long as you're not pounding the whole box in a day.
I'm not an expert. I'm just a dude trying his best to be healthy. I hope that this helps. It is very easy for me to say, "This is what you should do," but that doesn't mean I have it all figured out. Or that I do it. The best that I can tell you is to stick with it. Don't get discouraged. If it was easy, we would all have six pack abs and giant muscles (or, if you're a girl, you'd all look like supermodels). But it isn't easy. I wish you the best of luck in your endeavor, just as everyone has done for me.
Thanks for reading. Keep reading. Keep posting. Let me know how it goes. Good luck.
I'll see everyone later.
I've just stumbled across your blog. How often are you getting weighed? How did you get started with regards to your will-power? Any strategies that worked? I crave sugar... cannot seem to get through the day without it.
Well Anonymous, those are great questions. I'm no expert, but here are my answers. I weigh myself officially once a week. However, I do jump on the scale pretty frequently just to check in. And really, I find that the scale isn't an accurate measure of success. Because I might have busted my ass the week before and eaten almost nothing and GAINED weight. That would be because I'm converting flab to muscle.
A better indicator of success would be my jeans that are normally just a hair tight suddenly being not too tight. Or one of my t-shirts flapping around more than normal.
Does that make sense? The scale is nice, but not totally accurate.
Will-power? Shit, I haven't figured that one out yet. Luckily (depending on how you look at it), I tend to have an obsessive personality; when I get into something, I get into it full bore, no restraint. If I decide to collect rare stamps tomorrow, I'm going to have the best rare stamp collection around. As far as weight loss and diet, I HAVE to do this. And I beat myself up pretty bad when I "break" the diet or whatever.
Everything that I've read says to make small adjustments. Find ways to feed your sweet tooth in other ways. The peanut butter and graham cracker snack helps me because it is sweet and salty and crunchy. It might be on the higher calorie end, but it has protein and is still better for me than a Snickers. Fiber One bars actually taste pretty good and they're not that bad for you either. As long as you're not pounding the whole box in a day.
I'm not an expert. I'm just a dude trying his best to be healthy. I hope that this helps. It is very easy for me to say, "This is what you should do," but that doesn't mean I have it all figured out. Or that I do it. The best that I can tell you is to stick with it. Don't get discouraged. If it was easy, we would all have six pack abs and giant muscles (or, if you're a girl, you'd all look like supermodels). But it isn't easy. I wish you the best of luck in your endeavor, just as everyone has done for me.
Thanks for reading. Keep reading. Keep posting. Let me know how it goes. Good luck.
I'll see everyone later.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Day 14.
Back on the horse today at the Tallmadge Rec center.
And all Rec centers are not created equal. I much prefer the one in Youngstown. First, there are no little kids running around. Also, the staff in Youngstown blends in better than the people at the Tallmadge Rec and don't make me feel as awkward. Also also, some dude was messing around on the treadmill next to me and it was pissing me off. At first I thought he was hitting on the lady next to him, but evidently they knew each other. Either way, he was a douche and annoyed me. If I can hear you being a jackass over my music, there's a problem with you.
Then, there are the machines. The treadmill at the Tallmadge Rec was kind of frightening. It felt like the tread was greased and I was afraid that I was going to slip and fall. Which would have sucked. A lot. It was also a very basic, no-frills kind of treadmill. Which is OK, I suppose, but it is not what I'm used to.
They did have two crazy machines that I tried. One was this half elliptical half bike thing that was amazing. It looked like this:
I liked it because I'm lazy and I got to sit down while also getting the benefits of an elliptical. There were settings where I could randomly do just my arms or legs on a higher difficulty setting. It was seriously awesome.
But it also cost me $8 to work out today, which I was not a fan of. You could argue that I pay $3,500 per semester to work out at school, but that would be stupid. Because I actually pay that for classes that I generally don't like. So suck it.
Treadmill for 50 varying the speed and incline, then the elliptibike (I just made that up) for 20. Wanted to do more, but most of the other ellipticals were crappy and made too much noise for my liking.
Breakfast:
1 FiberOne Waffle with sugar free syrup and butter
2 pieces of sausage
2 pieces of Turkey bacon
(this breakfast was not so good for me, maybe)
Lunch:
Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake yogurt
A bunch of unsalted peanuts
(I find it weird that I didn't eat more, especially after working out. But I didn't...)
Dinner:
Steak with A1
Sweet potato casserole
Cheesy pasta with broccoli and carrots
1 biscuit with butter and sugar free, imitation honey
And cake... German Chocolate. It was my mom's birthday cake.
Also a couple glasses of tea throughout the day and some water too. I've been feeling crappy. Frigging head cold.
See you tomorrow.
And all Rec centers are not created equal. I much prefer the one in Youngstown. First, there are no little kids running around. Also, the staff in Youngstown blends in better than the people at the Tallmadge Rec and don't make me feel as awkward. Also also, some dude was messing around on the treadmill next to me and it was pissing me off. At first I thought he was hitting on the lady next to him, but evidently they knew each other. Either way, he was a douche and annoyed me. If I can hear you being a jackass over my music, there's a problem with you.
Then, there are the machines. The treadmill at the Tallmadge Rec was kind of frightening. It felt like the tread was greased and I was afraid that I was going to slip and fall. Which would have sucked. A lot. It was also a very basic, no-frills kind of treadmill. Which is OK, I suppose, but it is not what I'm used to.
They did have two crazy machines that I tried. One was this half elliptical half bike thing that was amazing. It looked like this:
I liked it because I'm lazy and I got to sit down while also getting the benefits of an elliptical. There were settings where I could randomly do just my arms or legs on a higher difficulty setting. It was seriously awesome.
But it also cost me $8 to work out today, which I was not a fan of. You could argue that I pay $3,500 per semester to work out at school, but that would be stupid. Because I actually pay that for classes that I generally don't like. So suck it.
Treadmill for 50 varying the speed and incline, then the elliptibike (I just made that up) for 20. Wanted to do more, but most of the other ellipticals were crappy and made too much noise for my liking.
Breakfast:
1 FiberOne Waffle with sugar free syrup and butter
2 pieces of sausage
2 pieces of Turkey bacon
(this breakfast was not so good for me, maybe)
Lunch:
Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake yogurt
A bunch of unsalted peanuts
(I find it weird that I didn't eat more, especially after working out. But I didn't...)
Dinner:
Steak with A1
Sweet potato casserole
Cheesy pasta with broccoli and carrots
1 biscuit with butter and sugar free, imitation honey
And cake... German Chocolate. It was my mom's birthday cake.
Also a couple glasses of tea throughout the day and some water too. I've been feeling crappy. Frigging head cold.
See you tomorrow.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Day 13.
Dude. No, seriously, dude.
Today, I did absolutely nothing.
IT WAS AWESOME.
Maybe "absolutely nothing" is pushing it, but I really didn't do much. Hung out with Vanessa and the kids, went out to dinner with the folks, walked around Wal-Mart. The end. No working out. Unless you count hoisting Lilly around, because she's a chunker.
Tomorrow, back to the grind, though. Vanessa and I are going to hit the Tallmadge Rec for a bit and burn off the House of Hunan that we had tonight.
Which, by the way, was AWESOME (Yeah, I used "awesome" in all caps. Twice. What about it?). We went with my parents and split California, Philadelphia and Tempura Shrimp rolls. Then Vanessa and I ordered the 3 Cup Chicken to split and I sampled my parents Rose Beef. They were both fantastic. I think House of Hunan might be my favorite place in the whole world. Disney Land can suck it.
Tomorrow is my dad's last day of freedom, apparently, as he is starting a new job. Apparently. I don't hold out 100% faith on this, but we're having a big celebration breakfast anyway.
Breakfast:
3 pieces of Turkey Bacon
3 eggs, scrambled, with hot sauce
2 pieces of 100% Whole Wheat toast (we're out of Protein Plus!)
(This breakfast was delicious. It has been a long time since I had plain scrambled eggs and I had seriously doubted the Turkey Bacon. I think that if I do the eggs with Pam instead of butter, that I could do this more often... thoughts?)
Lunch:
2 pieces of leftover Luigi's pizza with pepperoni and mushroom.
(Thankfully, these are out of the house now, so I can no longer be tempted.)
Snack:
3 Graham crackers with peanut butter
Dinner:
Helpings of 3 Cup Chicken and Rose Beef with white rice
Wonton Soup
3 pieces Philly roll
2 or 3 pieces of California roll
2 pieces of Tempura Shrimp roll
(I was very disappointed that they didn't have fried shrimp heads like Duff said I should try. I would totally dig some fried shrimp heads.)
See you tomorrow.
Today, I did absolutely nothing.
IT WAS AWESOME.
Maybe "absolutely nothing" is pushing it, but I really didn't do much. Hung out with Vanessa and the kids, went out to dinner with the folks, walked around Wal-Mart. The end. No working out. Unless you count hoisting Lilly around, because she's a chunker.
Tomorrow, back to the grind, though. Vanessa and I are going to hit the Tallmadge Rec for a bit and burn off the House of Hunan that we had tonight.
Which, by the way, was AWESOME (Yeah, I used "awesome" in all caps. Twice. What about it?). We went with my parents and split California, Philadelphia and Tempura Shrimp rolls. Then Vanessa and I ordered the 3 Cup Chicken to split and I sampled my parents Rose Beef. They were both fantastic. I think House of Hunan might be my favorite place in the whole world. Disney Land can suck it.
Tomorrow is my dad's last day of freedom, apparently, as he is starting a new job. Apparently. I don't hold out 100% faith on this, but we're having a big celebration breakfast anyway.
Breakfast:
3 pieces of Turkey Bacon
3 eggs, scrambled, with hot sauce
2 pieces of 100% Whole Wheat toast (we're out of Protein Plus!)
(This breakfast was delicious. It has been a long time since I had plain scrambled eggs and I had seriously doubted the Turkey Bacon. I think that if I do the eggs with Pam instead of butter, that I could do this more often... thoughts?)
Lunch:
2 pieces of leftover Luigi's pizza with pepperoni and mushroom.
(Thankfully, these are out of the house now, so I can no longer be tempted.)
Snack:
3 Graham crackers with peanut butter
Dinner:
Helpings of 3 Cup Chicken and Rose Beef with white rice
Wonton Soup
3 pieces Philly roll
2 or 3 pieces of California roll
2 pieces of Tempura Shrimp roll
(I was very disappointed that they didn't have fried shrimp heads like Duff said I should try. I would totally dig some fried shrimp heads.)
See you tomorrow.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Day 12.
I am not going to lie to you. Today was a bad day. Not bad in like, "Oh, whoa, terrible things happened to me." But bad in like, "Oh, hey, I had Luigi's for dinner. A third piece? SURE!"
Luigi's is the devil.
Also, I think I broke one of the bikes at school.
I did 50 on the treadmill. I was going to do 45, but as I neared 45, the bikes that I like were full and I can't do the elliptical right after the treadmill because THAT IS NOT HOW I DO IT. So I did 5 more minutes and then one of the bikes cleared off, and I took that sucker for a spin. And then all of the other bikes were suddenly empty. My feelings were hurt.
While on the treadmill, I did all kinds of speed and incline switching, and it, again, kicked my ass. I really like it. If I could get that much out of the bike and elliptical, that would be awesome. But resistance is only one variable while speed and incline is two, so...
My goal was 20 on the bike, but at 18 and changed it just stopped. The resistance suddenly went away and the electronics died. Instead of messing around with it, I got up and pretended everything was OK. Oops.
I did the elliptical for 10 minutes and felt pretty dead, so I quit early.
Then someone walked in on me after I was drying off from my shower. I think. I heard a "Sorry," and the curtain flapping, but didn't actually see anyone. So I was unfazed.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Kix with milk (I'm all out of Cheerios Crunch)
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with fake Smart Balance buttery spread and REAL Strawberry Jam (with sugar! I felt brave, we'll see when I test my blood sugar later. Then again, I had pizza as well, so it could be bad...)
Protein Bar after working out
Lunch:
Buffalo Chicken Wrap with cheese, lettuce, ranch dressing and hot sauce
2 Clausen pickle spears
1 Apple
Dinner:
3, yes 3, pieces of pizza from Luigi's with pepperoni and mushroom
Salad with lettuce, cheese, tomato, radish and Luigi's House Italian
Dessert:
No sugar added ice cream
Pretty sure that this was totally awful for me. But Luigi's pizza is so good... oh my God. Just thinking about it makes me want more. I thought about making a joke about trading one of my kids for Luigi's pizza, but that might be overkill.
Tomorrow I'm going to go back to being good and kill some gym time... (I hate saying stuff like that. I feel like a douche and probably sound like one too. But screw it. I'm that fat guy stinking up your gym now, trying to act like I know what I'm talking about. Deal with it!)
Luigi's is the devil.
Also, I think I broke one of the bikes at school.
I did 50 on the treadmill. I was going to do 45, but as I neared 45, the bikes that I like were full and I can't do the elliptical right after the treadmill because THAT IS NOT HOW I DO IT. So I did 5 more minutes and then one of the bikes cleared off, and I took that sucker for a spin. And then all of the other bikes were suddenly empty. My feelings were hurt.
While on the treadmill, I did all kinds of speed and incline switching, and it, again, kicked my ass. I really like it. If I could get that much out of the bike and elliptical, that would be awesome. But resistance is only one variable while speed and incline is two, so...
My goal was 20 on the bike, but at 18 and changed it just stopped. The resistance suddenly went away and the electronics died. Instead of messing around with it, I got up and pretended everything was OK. Oops.
I did the elliptical for 10 minutes and felt pretty dead, so I quit early.
Then someone walked in on me after I was drying off from my shower. I think. I heard a "Sorry," and the curtain flapping, but didn't actually see anyone. So I was unfazed.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Kix with milk (I'm all out of Cheerios Crunch)
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with fake Smart Balance buttery spread and REAL Strawberry Jam (with sugar! I felt brave, we'll see when I test my blood sugar later. Then again, I had pizza as well, so it could be bad...)
Protein Bar after working out
Lunch:
Buffalo Chicken Wrap with cheese, lettuce, ranch dressing and hot sauce
2 Clausen pickle spears
1 Apple
Dinner:
3, yes 3, pieces of pizza from Luigi's with pepperoni and mushroom
Salad with lettuce, cheese, tomato, radish and Luigi's House Italian
Dessert:
No sugar added ice cream
Pretty sure that this was totally awful for me. But Luigi's pizza is so good... oh my God. Just thinking about it makes me want more. I thought about making a joke about trading one of my kids for Luigi's pizza, but that might be overkill.
Tomorrow I'm going to go back to being good and kill some gym time... (I hate saying stuff like that. I feel like a douche and probably sound like one too. But screw it. I'm that fat guy stinking up your gym now, trying to act like I know what I'm talking about. Deal with it!)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Day 11.
Another day down.
So, the bastards in my Brit Lit class decided that today was a good day for pizza. It smelled like heaven. It smelled better than heaven, actually. But I refrained. I was a good boy. But Vanessa and I are totally having pizza tomorrow. It's the weekend... or some other excuse.
Did 45 on the treadmill, starting off on max incline and then going down to half max, kicking the speed up .1 every minute for 5 minutes then up .5 incline every minute for 5 minutes and then taking each one down, then back up, then down for 40, then full incline for 2.5 minutes and then ending on no incline. I felt the burn. 20 on the bike and 20 on the elliptical. I'm not currently brave enough to mess around with the bike and elliptical yet. I usually pick a resistance and stick to it. I might try switching it up more. When I'm braver.
Question: why does every gym have one TV that is constantly tuned to the Food Network? That seems cruel. Also, the IHOP All-You-Can-Eat Pancakes commercial? That is seriously screaming, "EFF YOU FATTY! EAT SOME PANCAKES!"
I don't even like IHOP, but I love me some pancakes...
Breakfast:
2+ servings of Cheerios Crunch with milk (the plus is because there was only a little at the bottom of the bag)
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with peanut butter, honey and bananas
Lunch:
Ham and turkey wrap with cheese, lettuce and mustard on a Sun Dried tomato tortilla
A bunch of carrots
3 Clausen pickle spears (I effing love Clausen pickles)
1 Apple
1 Pineapple Coconut Dannon Yogurt (probably my favorite yogurt)
Snack:
Protein bar
4 bottles of water throughout the day
Dinner:
Leftover soup
Going to go watch Moon. See you tomorrow.
So, the bastards in my Brit Lit class decided that today was a good day for pizza. It smelled like heaven. It smelled better than heaven, actually. But I refrained. I was a good boy. But Vanessa and I are totally having pizza tomorrow. It's the weekend... or some other excuse.
Did 45 on the treadmill, starting off on max incline and then going down to half max, kicking the speed up .1 every minute for 5 minutes then up .5 incline every minute for 5 minutes and then taking each one down, then back up, then down for 40, then full incline for 2.5 minutes and then ending on no incline. I felt the burn. 20 on the bike and 20 on the elliptical. I'm not currently brave enough to mess around with the bike and elliptical yet. I usually pick a resistance and stick to it. I might try switching it up more. When I'm braver.
Question: why does every gym have one TV that is constantly tuned to the Food Network? That seems cruel. Also, the IHOP All-You-Can-Eat Pancakes commercial? That is seriously screaming, "EFF YOU FATTY! EAT SOME PANCAKES!"
I don't even like IHOP, but I love me some pancakes...
Breakfast:
2+ servings of Cheerios Crunch with milk (the plus is because there was only a little at the bottom of the bag)
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with peanut butter, honey and bananas
Lunch:
Ham and turkey wrap with cheese, lettuce and mustard on a Sun Dried tomato tortilla
A bunch of carrots
3 Clausen pickle spears (I effing love Clausen pickles)
1 Apple
1 Pineapple Coconut Dannon Yogurt (probably my favorite yogurt)
Snack:
Protein bar
4 bottles of water throughout the day
Dinner:
Leftover soup
Going to go watch Moon. See you tomorrow.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Day10.
First thing: Bree, I messed around with the incline and speeds while I was working out today and it kicked my ass. In a really, really good way. Good call on that.
Today was not a good day. I didn't feel right for most of the day.
I started by taking Matt to school and finding out that the girl who was going to buy the article that I wrote no longer works for that publication. Which was a giant bummer. But I think they might still pick it up.
I started the car and found out that I needed gas; not a big deal. I got on the highway and the car was vibrating like people wished their sex toys did. On a car, that's not so good. Turns out my tire was most of the way flat. I did not notice this because the car was in 6 inches of snow. Pumped gas and went to the air machine: out of order.
Had to drive to another gas station and fill up, and the tire was so low that it took all of the time that my 75 cents bought me.
Went to school and had to come straight home, instead of hitting the gym, which bummed me out. But Vanessa had errands to run and couldn't run them with the kids, so I came home. Not a big deal.
Started work on dinner while the kids played. Worked like crazy to make an awesome soup only to find out that no one was going to eat it with me. Parents decided to go out to dinner AFTER I told my dad that I was making soup. Which bummed me out and pissed me off. Just a little.
And the day felt really heavy and I felt tired. Matt fighting his dinner and screaming didn't help. Not at all. But Vanessa came home and things brightened up pretty quickly.
I debated paying for a day pass at the Tallmadge Rec but couldn't get motivated enough to go out. Instead I took A Clockwork Orange upstairs and hit the bike for 15 and the treadmill for 40. The first 15 on the treadmill, I did some hand weights on a moderate speed. Then for the last 25 I hit the incline up and down and the speed up and down in 2 and a half minute intervals.
It seriously kicked the shit out of me. Awesomely. Good call Bree, for real.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch with milk
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with peanut butter on one piece, fake, sugar free honey on the other and half a banana sliced and sandwiched it
The rest of that banana
2 glasses of water
A bottle of water at school with Citrus Crystal Light in it
Lunch:
Ham and turkey wrap with cheese, lettuce and mustard
A bunch of carrots
2 Clausen pickle spears
1 Cherry Dannon Yogurt
Dinner:
Homemade soup with beans, corn and chicken
I started by sauteing an onion, a green pepper, a couple celery stocks and some carrots for a few minutes. I put a big thing of chicken stock on to heat up, added 1 beef bouillon cube and 1 chicken bouillon cube plus 6 cups of water. After the veggies were soft, I dumped them into the stock. Seasoned with salt, pepper, dried cilantro, a few red pepper flakes, cumin, curry powder and garlic salt.
I let it simmer for about 45 minutes before I pulled all of those veggies out and dumped them in a blender with a couple ladles of broth and some water and pureed the crap out of it. Dumped it back in to the remaining broth. Added 3 cans of great white beans, 2 cans of corn and 3 chicken breasts which were cut into small chunks and sauteed. Simmered for another hour or so.
Fricking awesome.
2 small chunks of bread (which sucked and were not worth it)
See you tomorrow.
Today was not a good day. I didn't feel right for most of the day.
I started by taking Matt to school and finding out that the girl who was going to buy the article that I wrote no longer works for that publication. Which was a giant bummer. But I think they might still pick it up.
I started the car and found out that I needed gas; not a big deal. I got on the highway and the car was vibrating like people wished their sex toys did. On a car, that's not so good. Turns out my tire was most of the way flat. I did not notice this because the car was in 6 inches of snow. Pumped gas and went to the air machine: out of order.
Had to drive to another gas station and fill up, and the tire was so low that it took all of the time that my 75 cents bought me.
Went to school and had to come straight home, instead of hitting the gym, which bummed me out. But Vanessa had errands to run and couldn't run them with the kids, so I came home. Not a big deal.
Started work on dinner while the kids played. Worked like crazy to make an awesome soup only to find out that no one was going to eat it with me. Parents decided to go out to dinner AFTER I told my dad that I was making soup. Which bummed me out and pissed me off. Just a little.
And the day felt really heavy and I felt tired. Matt fighting his dinner and screaming didn't help. Not at all. But Vanessa came home and things brightened up pretty quickly.
I debated paying for a day pass at the Tallmadge Rec but couldn't get motivated enough to go out. Instead I took A Clockwork Orange upstairs and hit the bike for 15 and the treadmill for 40. The first 15 on the treadmill, I did some hand weights on a moderate speed. Then for the last 25 I hit the incline up and down and the speed up and down in 2 and a half minute intervals.
It seriously kicked the shit out of me. Awesomely. Good call Bree, for real.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch with milk
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with peanut butter on one piece, fake, sugar free honey on the other and half a banana sliced and sandwiched it
The rest of that banana
2 glasses of water
A bottle of water at school with Citrus Crystal Light in it
Lunch:
Ham and turkey wrap with cheese, lettuce and mustard
A bunch of carrots
2 Clausen pickle spears
1 Cherry Dannon Yogurt
Dinner:
Homemade soup with beans, corn and chicken
I started by sauteing an onion, a green pepper, a couple celery stocks and some carrots for a few minutes. I put a big thing of chicken stock on to heat up, added 1 beef bouillon cube and 1 chicken bouillon cube plus 6 cups of water. After the veggies were soft, I dumped them into the stock. Seasoned with salt, pepper, dried cilantro, a few red pepper flakes, cumin, curry powder and garlic salt.
I let it simmer for about 45 minutes before I pulled all of those veggies out and dumped them in a blender with a couple ladles of broth and some water and pureed the crap out of it. Dumped it back in to the remaining broth. Added 3 cans of great white beans, 2 cans of corn and 3 chicken breasts which were cut into small chunks and sauteed. Simmered for another hour or so.
Fricking awesome.
2 small chunks of bread (which sucked and were not worth it)
See you tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Day 9.
Today felt like a really long day. Not a bad day. Just long.
I don't have any anecdotes or heartwarming tales to tell today. Sorry.
I did 45 minutes on the treadmill, but I noticed about half way in that it was significantly harder than it was yesterday. Mostly because I had it on 3.5 instead of 3.0 for the speed. Which explains it. It also wiped me out and I only did 15 on the bike and 20 on the elliptical. Which is still an hour and 20 minutes, which is none too shabby.
I'm thinking about throwing in some weight machines or something. I don't know, though. It's on the burner, for sure.
My lunch felt huge today, mostly because there was a lot in it. But it was good stuff for the most part, so Vanessa said it was OK.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with peanut butter and bananas
2 glasses of water
Lunch:
1 Ham and Turkey wrap with lettuce, mustard and cheese
a bunch of baby carrots
2 Clausen Pickle Spears
Half of a pear
Strawberry Dannon Yogurt
1 serving of Cool Ranch Doritos
(that is a very hefty lunch)
Dinner:
Chipotle Burrito bowl with no rice. Beans, chicken, tomato, corn and green salsa, light cheese and lettuce. And it was delicious. Killing the sour cream, rice and tortilla kills a lot of the filler, but you still get all of the killer. Adding those three things brings you to over 1000 calories. Intense.
I don't know if you noticed this, but I love Chipotle. I will make excuses to eat it. Obviously. But at only 525 calories and 52g of protein, it's totally worth it.
See you tomorrow.
I don't have any anecdotes or heartwarming tales to tell today. Sorry.
I did 45 minutes on the treadmill, but I noticed about half way in that it was significantly harder than it was yesterday. Mostly because I had it on 3.5 instead of 3.0 for the speed. Which explains it. It also wiped me out and I only did 15 on the bike and 20 on the elliptical. Which is still an hour and 20 minutes, which is none too shabby.
I'm thinking about throwing in some weight machines or something. I don't know, though. It's on the burner, for sure.
My lunch felt huge today, mostly because there was a lot in it. But it was good stuff for the most part, so Vanessa said it was OK.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with peanut butter and bananas
2 glasses of water
Lunch:
1 Ham and Turkey wrap with lettuce, mustard and cheese
a bunch of baby carrots
2 Clausen Pickle Spears
Half of a pear
Strawberry Dannon Yogurt
1 serving of Cool Ranch Doritos
(that is a very hefty lunch)
Dinner:
Chipotle Burrito bowl with no rice. Beans, chicken, tomato, corn and green salsa, light cheese and lettuce. And it was delicious. Killing the sour cream, rice and tortilla kills a lot of the filler, but you still get all of the killer. Adding those three things brings you to over 1000 calories. Intense.
I don't know if you noticed this, but I love Chipotle. I will make excuses to eat it. Obviously. But at only 525 calories and 52g of protein, it's totally worth it.
See you tomorrow.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Day 8.
Official weigh in: 277. Which is 5 pounds down, as I started at 282. My blood sugar for the past week has been an average of 143, which is phenomenal.
I feel that that is some pretty good progress. I'm proud of that. Let's keep it going.
Today at the gym was 45 minutes on the treadmill, 25 on the bike and 25 on the elliptical. That's a helluva lot of gym time. I think that I'm going to refrain from adding too much more because that was seriously a helluva lot of gym time.
I actually almost cried at the gym. The TV in front of me was playing Pregnant at 16 on MTV. The couple in question was debating to give their baby up for adoption. They did. But it showed the whole delivery process and that brought me back to when Lilly was born and how much it affected me.
Which is a lot.
Then, after the delivery, they asked the girl of she wanted to see the baby, and she said no. Which broke my heart. Finally she did, and you could just see how sad she was. It was terrible. To make matters worse, the pregnant girl's mom wouldn't sign off on the adoption papers, so the trade-off couldn't happen on hospital grounds. The girl and baby daddy had to pack the baby up and leave the hospital before it could happen. So, this baby that they decided to give up and wanted to make a clean break from, they were forced into more.
Were they stupid for having a baby at 16? Yeah, absolutely. But it was still hard to watch.
Which makes me think about my babies and how wonderful they are. Matt is not my biological son, nor is he Vanessa's. This is a long story, so buckle in...
A couple years ago, Vanessa and I found out that she had Polycystic Ovary Syndrome and that it would be incredibly difficult for her to conceive, if at all. One of my sisters was in the throes of a horrible change in her life which led to her abandoning our family unless she needs money. She got pregnant.
The father was a dirtball deluxe. He had a history of rape, abuse and overall being a piece-of-shit-ness. And she picked him, even after we put our hand out to try and help her. But children services intervened and took Matthew into custody almost immediately after he was born. They called my parents and asked if they wanted to take temporary custody.
And it was something that they couldn't do: they are too old to take care of an infant, let alone one with potential special needs (he was 2 months premature). They called me, looking for advice. I instantly knew that Vanessa and I had to step in. Matt needed a mommy and a daddy, and it was our job to do it. She was fortunately thinking the exact same thing. We moved back to Akron that night.
Then there were massive hills and hurdles to overcome. Mostly, my sister. She is a selfish and stupid human being who was not able to separate her anger at our family from what was best for Matthew. The case languished in court and took so long that eventually, we gave up hope of him ever coming home.
In the meantime, Vanessa and I lived our lives. In one of my favorite twists of fate, we were getting ready to go out for lunch. We had just finished showering and she was putting some lotion on when something incredibly strange happened.
She was lactating.
One of the side effects of PCOS is that it is not uncommon to go months at a time without a period. So we thought nothing of it. The sickness, we chalked up to bad food. The weight gain? We didn't discuss it. Turns out, there was a Lilly inside there. Almost 5 months along.
Of course, we were overjoyed. The question became: can we handle two babies, if that's what it comes down to?
I was fucking scared out of my mind. We were losing incredibly precious time with Matt and everyday the situation grew bleaker. But I knew that it was meant to be and that Vanessa and I were strong. Together, we were so strong that we could accomplish anything. We could absolutely handle two babies. We might lose all of our hair in the process, but we could do it.
Matt came home a week after Lilly was born. In the span of two weeks, we went from having no babies to a newborn and a one year old.
There's not a moment of regret. I don't remember life without them and I don't even want to contemplate going back to it. There's nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for my kids.
And that includes trying to prolong my life so that I can be with them as long as the fates allow me. So that Hour and a half that I spent in the gym today? Every second of it is worth it knowing that there are babies waiting at home for me who need me.
Matt and Lilly: Daddy loves you so much. Every day with you in my life is a gift that I have done absolutely nothing to deserve. I'm thankful in ways that I can never begin to express.
Vanessa: I'm blessed beyond words to have you as my partner in all of this. I love you.
Thanks to everyone else for indulging me. See you tomorrow.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch with milk
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with butter and Sugar Free Black Berry jelly (which sucked)
2 glasses of water
No lunch because I hit the gym right after class. After the gym I had a protein bar on the way home from school and dinner was waiting for me.
4 bottles of water throughout the day
Dinner:
Garlic Roasted chicken from Wal-Mart (white meat only)
Small serving of Sweet Potato Casserole (which was lackluster)
Small serving of Wal-Mart Tandoori Naan bread (also lackluster)
Salad with mixed greens and lettuce, cheese and Italian dressing
Now I'm going to have a yogurt and a glass of water
I feel that that is some pretty good progress. I'm proud of that. Let's keep it going.
Today at the gym was 45 minutes on the treadmill, 25 on the bike and 25 on the elliptical. That's a helluva lot of gym time. I think that I'm going to refrain from adding too much more because that was seriously a helluva lot of gym time.
I actually almost cried at the gym. The TV in front of me was playing Pregnant at 16 on MTV. The couple in question was debating to give their baby up for adoption. They did. But it showed the whole delivery process and that brought me back to when Lilly was born and how much it affected me.
Which is a lot.
Then, after the delivery, they asked the girl of she wanted to see the baby, and she said no. Which broke my heart. Finally she did, and you could just see how sad she was. It was terrible. To make matters worse, the pregnant girl's mom wouldn't sign off on the adoption papers, so the trade-off couldn't happen on hospital grounds. The girl and baby daddy had to pack the baby up and leave the hospital before it could happen. So, this baby that they decided to give up and wanted to make a clean break from, they were forced into more.
Were they stupid for having a baby at 16? Yeah, absolutely. But it was still hard to watch.
Which makes me think about my babies and how wonderful they are. Matt is not my biological son, nor is he Vanessa's. This is a long story, so buckle in...
A couple years ago, Vanessa and I found out that she had Polycystic Ovary Syndrome and that it would be incredibly difficult for her to conceive, if at all. One of my sisters was in the throes of a horrible change in her life which led to her abandoning our family unless she needs money. She got pregnant.
The father was a dirtball deluxe. He had a history of rape, abuse and overall being a piece-of-shit-ness. And she picked him, even after we put our hand out to try and help her. But children services intervened and took Matthew into custody almost immediately after he was born. They called my parents and asked if they wanted to take temporary custody.
And it was something that they couldn't do: they are too old to take care of an infant, let alone one with potential special needs (he was 2 months premature). They called me, looking for advice. I instantly knew that Vanessa and I had to step in. Matt needed a mommy and a daddy, and it was our job to do it. She was fortunately thinking the exact same thing. We moved back to Akron that night.
Then there were massive hills and hurdles to overcome. Mostly, my sister. She is a selfish and stupid human being who was not able to separate her anger at our family from what was best for Matthew. The case languished in court and took so long that eventually, we gave up hope of him ever coming home.
In the meantime, Vanessa and I lived our lives. In one of my favorite twists of fate, we were getting ready to go out for lunch. We had just finished showering and she was putting some lotion on when something incredibly strange happened.
She was lactating.
One of the side effects of PCOS is that it is not uncommon to go months at a time without a period. So we thought nothing of it. The sickness, we chalked up to bad food. The weight gain? We didn't discuss it. Turns out, there was a Lilly inside there. Almost 5 months along.
Of course, we were overjoyed. The question became: can we handle two babies, if that's what it comes down to?
I was fucking scared out of my mind. We were losing incredibly precious time with Matt and everyday the situation grew bleaker. But I knew that it was meant to be and that Vanessa and I were strong. Together, we were so strong that we could accomplish anything. We could absolutely handle two babies. We might lose all of our hair in the process, but we could do it.
Matt came home a week after Lilly was born. In the span of two weeks, we went from having no babies to a newborn and a one year old.
There's not a moment of regret. I don't remember life without them and I don't even want to contemplate going back to it. There's nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for my kids.
And that includes trying to prolong my life so that I can be with them as long as the fates allow me. So that Hour and a half that I spent in the gym today? Every second of it is worth it knowing that there are babies waiting at home for me who need me.
Matt and Lilly: Daddy loves you so much. Every day with you in my life is a gift that I have done absolutely nothing to deserve. I'm thankful in ways that I can never begin to express.
Vanessa: I'm blessed beyond words to have you as my partner in all of this. I love you.
Thanks to everyone else for indulging me. See you tomorrow.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cheerios Crunch with milk
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with butter and Sugar Free Black Berry jelly (which sucked)
2 glasses of water
No lunch because I hit the gym right after class. After the gym I had a protein bar on the way home from school and dinner was waiting for me.
4 bottles of water throughout the day
Dinner:
Garlic Roasted chicken from Wal-Mart (white meat only)
Small serving of Sweet Potato Casserole (which was lackluster)
Small serving of Wal-Mart Tandoori Naan bread (also lackluster)
Salad with mixed greens and lettuce, cheese and Italian dressing
Now I'm going to have a yogurt and a glass of water
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Day 7.
A week down. I have no idea how to feel about it yet. Today did not feel productive.
My dad is definitely a weight loss blocker. He frequently says how his surgery helped him out, but he hasn't changed his lifestyle. He still eats pizza and Chinese food all the time. Both yesterday, I think. Plus he made that french toast and today we woke up to waffles. Which is nice, but not necessarily good for us. And worst of all, his feelings get hurt if you don't eat them.
Anyway. Grocery shopping today. Didn't pick up anything special, it's just what we did.
Got home and I worked out, 15 on the bike, 30 or 40 on the treadmill (I can't remember now) and then 10 more on the bike. Watched Metalocalypse the whole time and it was awesome.
Breakfast:
1 Waffles with butter and sugar free syrup
1 banana
Snack:
1 Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake Yogurt
Lunch:
1 Turkey and ham wrap with lettuce, cheese and mustard
1 Good Value Strawberry Banana Yogurt
A bunch of carrots
Dinner:
Salad with all kinds of field greens and lettuce, cheese and Italian dressing
Half of a twice baked potato
Steak with A1
Broccoli and cheese
Snack:
Dannon Pineapple Coconut Yogurt
Kashi Peanut Peanut Butter bar
Maybe today doesn't feel productive because I feel like a ate a bunch. I did drink a lot of water too.
Weigh in tomorrow night. We'll see how it goes.
My dad is definitely a weight loss blocker. He frequently says how his surgery helped him out, but he hasn't changed his lifestyle. He still eats pizza and Chinese food all the time. Both yesterday, I think. Plus he made that french toast and today we woke up to waffles. Which is nice, but not necessarily good for us. And worst of all, his feelings get hurt if you don't eat them.
Anyway. Grocery shopping today. Didn't pick up anything special, it's just what we did.
Got home and I worked out, 15 on the bike, 30 or 40 on the treadmill (I can't remember now) and then 10 more on the bike. Watched Metalocalypse the whole time and it was awesome.
Breakfast:
1 Waffles with butter and sugar free syrup
1 banana
Snack:
1 Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake Yogurt
Lunch:
1 Turkey and ham wrap with lettuce, cheese and mustard
1 Good Value Strawberry Banana Yogurt
A bunch of carrots
Dinner:
Salad with all kinds of field greens and lettuce, cheese and Italian dressing
Half of a twice baked potato
Steak with A1
Broccoli and cheese
Snack:
Dannon Pineapple Coconut Yogurt
Kashi Peanut Peanut Butter bar
Maybe today doesn't feel productive because I feel like a ate a bunch. I did drink a lot of water too.
Weigh in tomorrow night. We'll see how it goes.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Day 6.
Yeah, the guy who saw Fucked Up last night totally just spent two hours watching American Idol. No, I don't understand it either. Shut your face.
Anyway. Today was a day of rest. I wrote my review and I think it's pretty decent. Drove to Salem to have dinner with the in-laws and pick up Vanessa's Valentine's Day present. It's a teddy bear holding a heart that says "SHIT BITCH YOU IS FINE." It is awesome.
Then, came home and did 35 minutes on the bike and 7 on the treadmill. The 7 was really just for Vanessa to finish the end of her show. I did the bike nice and easy while reading a book. It wasn't intense, but it was still good. I think.
Breakfast:
3 pieces of french toast that my dad made with butter and Splenda on top.
Lunch:
Leftover Chipotle Burrito bowl on some lettuce.
Dinner:
1/2 an order of Pad Thai with Rice Noodle Soup and an egg roll and a half.
The egg roll and a half probably weren't so good for me but they were awesome.
And normally, it's glass noodle soup which is WAY better, but it was still pretty decent.
Later, post-workout, had a pear and half an apple followed by a protein bar.
Overall a rough food day. Lots of things that probably weren't so good for me...
Now I'm going to bed.
Anyway. Today was a day of rest. I wrote my review and I think it's pretty decent. Drove to Salem to have dinner with the in-laws and pick up Vanessa's Valentine's Day present. It's a teddy bear holding a heart that says "SHIT BITCH YOU IS FINE." It is awesome.
Then, came home and did 35 minutes on the bike and 7 on the treadmill. The 7 was really just for Vanessa to finish the end of her show. I did the bike nice and easy while reading a book. It wasn't intense, but it was still good. I think.
Breakfast:
3 pieces of french toast that my dad made with butter and Splenda on top.
Lunch:
Leftover Chipotle Burrito bowl on some lettuce.
Dinner:
1/2 an order of Pad Thai with Rice Noodle Soup and an egg roll and a half.
The egg roll and a half probably weren't so good for me but they were awesome.
And normally, it's glass noodle soup which is WAY better, but it was still pretty decent.
Later, post-workout, had a pear and half an apple followed by a protein bar.
Overall a rough food day. Lots of things that probably weren't so good for me...
Now I'm going to bed.
It is way too late to actually consider this day 5 anymore.
I am too old to stay out this late but damn I had fun. That was a hell of a show.
My Indian food was better than I could have hoped for.
At the show, I had a crappy Diet Green Tea energy drink and a flavored Aquafina 20 oz as well has half of a Power Bar. I saved the other half for the ride home. It promised energy and since I did not fall asleep and kill us, I will assume that it worked.
I think that day 6 might be my day of rest just because we have so much going on and there's a ton of stuff to do... I don't know. I guess we'll just have to see how it all falls together.
Thanks folks. See you tomorrow.
My Indian food was better than I could have hoped for.
At the show, I had a crappy Diet Green Tea energy drink and a flavored Aquafina 20 oz as well has half of a Power Bar. I saved the other half for the ride home. It promised energy and since I did not fall asleep and kill us, I will assume that it worked.
I think that day 6 might be my day of rest just because we have so much going on and there's a ton of stuff to do... I don't know. I guess we'll just have to see how it all falls together.
Thanks folks. See you tomorrow.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Day 5 again.
What is up with people taking my seat in Interpersonal Communication? Seriously, it is week 5--i have been sitting in the same seat ALL semester. Except the days that someone steals it, which is becoming too frequent.
Anyway. Had lunch after class. Went to UPie, which was busy. Ended up sitting in a corner of incredibly drunk people. I felt drunk by proxy. It was pretty hysterical. My favorite part was when they started talking about going to Mardi Gras "Right now!" Apparently, they can make it in 17 hours if they left 3 hours ago. "We should go, dude, we should totsally go!" Funny stuff. I was offered a shot of Jameson but I passed. The thought of attempting the treadmill with any alcohol in me... No.
25 on the treadmill and 15 on the bike before I had to call it quits early. I felt bad not doing more, but I had an appointment for an oil change. Its weird. I don't like working out and I don't necessarily want to do it but I feel bad when I don't do what I feel is enough. Weird.
Lunch:
Buffalo Chicken Salad (no fries this time... Makes me sad...) With ranch dressing and extra hot sauce. Salad was mixed lettuce and field greens with tomatoes, cheese and carrots. I left most of the cheese on the plate.
Had an apple on the way home as well as a Kashi bar.
On my 4th bottle of water.
Here's a question: I need a good Protein/Energy bar. Something without too many calories (less than 200) and low sugar. The two do not go hand in hand so far as I can tell. I have to be careful about the sugar because of my diabetes... Advice?
Dinner will be:
Indian food! Chicken Masala and Dal Makhani (I might have spelled that wrong) with rice and Naan. Stoked. I love Indian food.
Also, Fucked Up concert tonight. Very excited.
Anyway. Had lunch after class. Went to UPie, which was busy. Ended up sitting in a corner of incredibly drunk people. I felt drunk by proxy. It was pretty hysterical. My favorite part was when they started talking about going to Mardi Gras "Right now!" Apparently, they can make it in 17 hours if they left 3 hours ago. "We should go, dude, we should totsally go!" Funny stuff. I was offered a shot of Jameson but I passed. The thought of attempting the treadmill with any alcohol in me... No.
25 on the treadmill and 15 on the bike before I had to call it quits early. I felt bad not doing more, but I had an appointment for an oil change. Its weird. I don't like working out and I don't necessarily want to do it but I feel bad when I don't do what I feel is enough. Weird.
Lunch:
Buffalo Chicken Salad (no fries this time... Makes me sad...) With ranch dressing and extra hot sauce. Salad was mixed lettuce and field greens with tomatoes, cheese and carrots. I left most of the cheese on the plate.
Had an apple on the way home as well as a Kashi bar.
On my 4th bottle of water.
Here's a question: I need a good Protein/Energy bar. Something without too many calories (less than 200) and low sugar. The two do not go hand in hand so far as I can tell. I have to be careful about the sugar because of my diabetes... Advice?
Dinner will be:
Indian food! Chicken Masala and Dal Makhani (I might have spelled that wrong) with rice and Naan. Stoked. I love Indian food.
Also, Fucked Up concert tonight. Very excited.
Day 5.
Woke up and did the treadmill for 20 minutes on a fast speed this morning. I didn't hit a wall or anything, it just seemed like a good idea.
Who am I?
Dinner last night:
1/2 of a burrito bowl from Chipotle with no rice, black beans, chicken, tomato, corn and green salsas and light cheese over lettuce. According to the Chipotle Nutrition Calculator, the whole thing would have run me about 525 calories. And I only ate half. I was surprisingly full, which shocked me as normally I eat a whole burrito and a bag of chips.
Also, an apple. Which was delicious.
Funny thing about apples, and fruit in general, really: I'm not supposed to eat them. Because they are high in sugar, even if it is natural, "good" sugar. It still shoots my blood sugar through the roof. Which is something I'm supposed to avoid as a diabetic.
But I love fruit. And as long as I'm eating healthy, I'm going to enjoy them. As long as I don't go overboard on other sugary things, I should be fine. That's what I'm telling myself anyway.
Breakfast today:
2 servings of Honey Nut Cheerios with milk
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with butter
1 banana
2 glasses of water
So today is 6 years since my uncle Mark died. I would have eventually noticed this (I do have the date tattooed on me, after all), but thankfully my cousin Rachel pointed it out. That got me thinking.
My uncle was a big dude. I wouldn't be surprised if he was over 350. And he was not healthy at all. He messed around in things that he shouldn't have and lived a short, rough life. A lot of my memories from growing up around him are incredible. He was so cool, had good taste in music, inspired me to want to play an instrument, get tattoos and be creative.
But the last couple times that I saw him, he just looked so bad. He had dark rings around his eyes, sweated profusely (in winter) and was as heavy as I'd ever seen him. He had a lot of back pain because of his weight and had sleep apnea as well. He took too much painkiller for his back and when the sleep apnea kicked in, he never woke up. And at 33 we buried him. Regardless of how many bad decisions you make, you shouldn't die that young.
That's why I'm doing this. My uncle Mark taught me a lot of things and played a large part in me becoming the person that I am today. But I don't want to end up dead at 33. I can't. I have too much to live for and too many things that I want to do. My wife and my kids need me. I'm going to do everything in my power to be here for as long as possible.
Shit. Things got heavy for a minute.
Um. Remember that time I saw a penis yesterday? Wacky!
Who am I?
Dinner last night:
1/2 of a burrito bowl from Chipotle with no rice, black beans, chicken, tomato, corn and green salsas and light cheese over lettuce. According to the Chipotle Nutrition Calculator, the whole thing would have run me about 525 calories. And I only ate half. I was surprisingly full, which shocked me as normally I eat a whole burrito and a bag of chips.
Also, an apple. Which was delicious.
Funny thing about apples, and fruit in general, really: I'm not supposed to eat them. Because they are high in sugar, even if it is natural, "good" sugar. It still shoots my blood sugar through the roof. Which is something I'm supposed to avoid as a diabetic.
But I love fruit. And as long as I'm eating healthy, I'm going to enjoy them. As long as I don't go overboard on other sugary things, I should be fine. That's what I'm telling myself anyway.
Breakfast today:
2 servings of Honey Nut Cheerios with milk
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast with butter
1 banana
2 glasses of water
So today is 6 years since my uncle Mark died. I would have eventually noticed this (I do have the date tattooed on me, after all), but thankfully my cousin Rachel pointed it out. That got me thinking.
My uncle was a big dude. I wouldn't be surprised if he was over 350. And he was not healthy at all. He messed around in things that he shouldn't have and lived a short, rough life. A lot of my memories from growing up around him are incredible. He was so cool, had good taste in music, inspired me to want to play an instrument, get tattoos and be creative.
But the last couple times that I saw him, he just looked so bad. He had dark rings around his eyes, sweated profusely (in winter) and was as heavy as I'd ever seen him. He had a lot of back pain because of his weight and had sleep apnea as well. He took too much painkiller for his back and when the sleep apnea kicked in, he never woke up. And at 33 we buried him. Regardless of how many bad decisions you make, you shouldn't die that young.
That's why I'm doing this. My uncle Mark taught me a lot of things and played a large part in me becoming the person that I am today. But I don't want to end up dead at 33. I can't. I have too much to live for and too many things that I want to do. My wife and my kids need me. I'm going to do everything in my power to be here for as long as possible.
Shit. Things got heavy for a minute.
Um. Remember that time I saw a penis yesterday? Wacky!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Day 4
So I saw a penis that didn't belong to me today.
That was my least favorite part of the day, in case you were wondering.
Went to class, had lunch and hit the gym. Did 30 minutes on the treadmill, no speed intervals or hand weights, 15 on the bike, 20 on the elliptical and 10 more on the treadmill.
Then I did something I never thought I would do: I showered in public. (Oddly, this has nothing to do with the penis that I saw...)
Growing up fat, I never, ever wanted to shower in a group. Because if being fat and nonathletic in an athletic situation isn't enough, having to show everyone your giant, fat belly certainly is. Fortunately, YSU supplies stalls and curtains for showering. So I could shower in relative peace. Except that the water wouldn't stay warm and I require it scalding. But I'm clean and less sweaty, so that's good.
And then I was getting dressed and BOOM: Penis.
Randomly:
1 20 oz bottle of water with Crystal Light
1 Protein Bar
1 20 oz bottle of water with Crystal Light
Lunch:
Chicken BLT salad with Italian dressing. Salad had lettuce, 2 cherry tomatoes, cheese, bacon bits and some chicken (this salad sucked, btw. If I'm going to get a salad, I should spend the extra money and go to UPie.)
1 20 oz bottle of water
Now I'm enjoying a bottle of water and considering another protein bar.
I should be doing homework...
That was my least favorite part of the day, in case you were wondering.
Went to class, had lunch and hit the gym. Did 30 minutes on the treadmill, no speed intervals or hand weights, 15 on the bike, 20 on the elliptical and 10 more on the treadmill.
Then I did something I never thought I would do: I showered in public. (Oddly, this has nothing to do with the penis that I saw...)
Growing up fat, I never, ever wanted to shower in a group. Because if being fat and nonathletic in an athletic situation isn't enough, having to show everyone your giant, fat belly certainly is. Fortunately, YSU supplies stalls and curtains for showering. So I could shower in relative peace. Except that the water wouldn't stay warm and I require it scalding. But I'm clean and less sweaty, so that's good.
And then I was getting dressed and BOOM: Penis.
Randomly:
1 20 oz bottle of water with Crystal Light
1 Protein Bar
1 20 oz bottle of water with Crystal Light
Lunch:
Chicken BLT salad with Italian dressing. Salad had lettuce, 2 cherry tomatoes, cheese, bacon bits and some chicken (this salad sucked, btw. If I'm going to get a salad, I should spend the extra money and go to UPie.)
1 20 oz bottle of water
Now I'm enjoying a bottle of water and considering another protein bar.
I should be doing homework...
Day 4
I did not work out this morning. I decided to save it for when I "hit the wall" or whatever the hell it is. Or a morning when sleep doesn't feel totally awesome. Because sleep felt totally awesome this morning.
I love all the comments. Thank you all. Knowing that there are people reading makes me feel good. Not just because I grew up fat and crave attention, but also because that is the purpose of this blog: having readers makes me feel accountable. With people reading and supporting me, if I fuck up and fail, I'm letting a bunch of other people down too. Private and solitary let down is easy to deal with. On a larger scale, not as much.
So please, help keep me accountable. Leave messages. Ask questions. Tell your friends and direct them here. Tell me your story. Give me anything so that I'm not just listing what I ate and how I worked out.
Thanks everyone.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Rice Krispies with milk and sugar free vanilla creamer.
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast and butter.
Hot tea.
Also, last night my blood sugar was 136 which is the lowest it has been in at least 6 months. Prior, my 3 month average was in the 200's.
I love all the comments. Thank you all. Knowing that there are people reading makes me feel good. Not just because I grew up fat and crave attention, but also because that is the purpose of this blog: having readers makes me feel accountable. With people reading and supporting me, if I fuck up and fail, I'm letting a bunch of other people down too. Private and solitary let down is easy to deal with. On a larger scale, not as much.
So please, help keep me accountable. Leave messages. Ask questions. Tell your friends and direct them here. Tell me your story. Give me anything so that I'm not just listing what I ate and how I worked out.
Thanks everyone.
Breakfast:
2 servings of Rice Krispies with milk and sugar free vanilla creamer.
2 pieces of Protein Plus toast and butter.
Hot tea.
Also, last night my blood sugar was 136 which is the lowest it has been in at least 6 months. Prior, my 3 month average was in the 200's.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Day 3 again.
Lunch:
Taco salad with lettuce, tomato, cheese, ground beef and taco sauce. Ground beef probably wasn't very good for me, but it wasn't very much.
Dinner:
Giant salad with lettuce, tomato, cheese and Italian dressing.
Leftover whole wheat spaghetti with sausage.
Later I had a Boston Cream Pie Yoplait yogurt and a small bowl of Cool Ranch Doritos. Not at the same time. And seriously, it was pretty close to the exact serving size of 12 chips.
Sue me.
This cutting calories thing is hard. I'm really hungry. It probably doesn't help that it's almost midnight. I don't know. I'm going to sleep and I'll be drinking a giant glass of fiber water, so I can worry about hunger in the morning.
Maybe working out too... we'll see.
Taco salad with lettuce, tomato, cheese, ground beef and taco sauce. Ground beef probably wasn't very good for me, but it wasn't very much.
Dinner:
Giant salad with lettuce, tomato, cheese and Italian dressing.
Leftover whole wheat spaghetti with sausage.
Later I had a Boston Cream Pie Yoplait yogurt and a small bowl of Cool Ranch Doritos. Not at the same time. And seriously, it was pretty close to the exact serving size of 12 chips.
Sue me.
This cutting calories thing is hard. I'm really hungry. It probably doesn't help that it's almost midnight. I don't know. I'm going to sleep and I'll be drinking a giant glass of fiber water, so I can worry about hunger in the morning.
Maybe working out too... we'll see.
Day 3
Woke up at 8, even though I decided to bail on school today. I didn't feel like driving in the snow with the rest of the peons for my classes. Sue me.
Goofed around for a bit before I got up with the kids and had some breakfast. Then when Vanessa got up, I went and did an hour in the "gym." Which is really a spare bedroom.
Anyway. 10 minutes and 2.5 miles on the bike, 40 minutes and just shy of 2 miles on the treadmill (10 fast, 10 slow with hand weights, then 20 fast) and 10 more for 2.5 miles on the bike.
As far as the treadmill goes, I don't know why I did 40. It was supposed to be 30 but when I hit that, I was like, "Fuck it. Let's do 5 more." And then when I hit 35, I was like, "What the hell. 5 more." Then when I hit 40, I said, "Oh my Christ, I need to stop."
The last 10 on the bike were kind of rough. Probably a side effect of the 40 on the treadmill. The whole time, I was like, "That was only 20 seconds? FUUUUUCK."
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cream of Wheat, sweetened with Splenda
2 pieces of Protein plus toast with butter.
I'm really hungry for some lunch. Might do the drive and then have a salad.
Goofed around for a bit before I got up with the kids and had some breakfast. Then when Vanessa got up, I went and did an hour in the "gym." Which is really a spare bedroom.
Anyway. 10 minutes and 2.5 miles on the bike, 40 minutes and just shy of 2 miles on the treadmill (10 fast, 10 slow with hand weights, then 20 fast) and 10 more for 2.5 miles on the bike.
As far as the treadmill goes, I don't know why I did 40. It was supposed to be 30 but when I hit that, I was like, "Fuck it. Let's do 5 more." And then when I hit 35, I was like, "What the hell. 5 more." Then when I hit 40, I said, "Oh my Christ, I need to stop."
The last 10 on the bike were kind of rough. Probably a side effect of the 40 on the treadmill. The whole time, I was like, "That was only 20 seconds? FUUUUUCK."
Breakfast:
2 servings of Cream of Wheat, sweetened with Splenda
2 pieces of Protein plus toast with butter.
I'm really hungry for some lunch. Might do the drive and then have a salad.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Day 2, again.
Working out is much more difficult at home. Both of our later classes were canceled, so we came home early. Which means we also skipped lunch. Which means we didn't eat until dinner. Which was rough.
Did my time after we put the kids to bed. 10 minutes and 2 miles on the bike, 30 minutes on the treadmill (10 fast, 10 slow with some hand weights then 10 fast again) and 10 more minutes on the bike for 2 more miles.
While I was working out, I had crazy ideas of waking up before I had to get ready for class to do some time on the treadmill. It sounds crazy, but could it hurt? Am I that motivated? I don't know, honestly. The whole impetus for this thing is getting healthy, and working out once a day, every day is better than the prior never. Right?
Went over breakfast already. Had two 20 oz. bottles of water during the day, then Vanessa and I split two of those protein bars. One of them tasted like cookie dough. It was awesome.
Dinner:
Whole wheat spaghetti (possibly angel hair) with sauce and veal with some cheese on top. It was delicious, but probably not so great for me. But it was a small portion...
Also had a large salad and a couple pieces of cantaloupe.
Now I need a shower and something to drink. Maybe another yogurt.
Also, feel free to comment and give me feedback, support, harassment, whatever. Apparently I can put ads on this thing and if people click them I get paid. Should I do that? Would you click for me?
Did my time after we put the kids to bed. 10 minutes and 2 miles on the bike, 30 minutes on the treadmill (10 fast, 10 slow with some hand weights then 10 fast again) and 10 more minutes on the bike for 2 more miles.
While I was working out, I had crazy ideas of waking up before I had to get ready for class to do some time on the treadmill. It sounds crazy, but could it hurt? Am I that motivated? I don't know, honestly. The whole impetus for this thing is getting healthy, and working out once a day, every day is better than the prior never. Right?
Went over breakfast already. Had two 20 oz. bottles of water during the day, then Vanessa and I split two of those protein bars. One of them tasted like cookie dough. It was awesome.
Dinner:
Whole wheat spaghetti (possibly angel hair) with sauce and veal with some cheese on top. It was delicious, but probably not so great for me. But it was a small portion...
Also had a large salad and a couple pieces of cantaloupe.
Now I need a shower and something to drink. Maybe another yogurt.
Also, feel free to comment and give me feedback, support, harassment, whatever. Apparently I can put ads on this thing and if people click them I get paid. Should I do that? Would you click for me?
More day 1 stuff, on day 2
Dinner was a taco salad with lettuce, tomato, ground beef, cheese and taco sauce. Pretty delicious. No tortillas or chips or anything. I was actually nauseous all night long. I think it's a side effect of my cholesterol medication.
Weighed in at 282.
For breakfast today:
Protein Plus Special K with milk and sugar free Vanilla creamer
2 pieces of toast with butter
1 Dannon Toasted Coconut Vanilla yogurt (fricking awesome)
Hot tea
Weighed in at 282.
For breakfast today:
Protein Plus Special K with milk and sugar free Vanilla creamer
2 pieces of toast with butter
1 Dannon Toasted Coconut Vanilla yogurt (fricking awesome)
Hot tea
Monday, February 8, 2010
Day 1.
So. We begin. I'm 27 and a diabetic. My knees hurt, my spine is crooked and I'm overweight. I take Actoplus Met for my diabetes, a cholesterol medication and Zoloft for depression. At my last doctor's appointment, my weight was 285. I no longer want to be a giant fat ass. So I'm going to do something about it.
Today I hit the gym. For 20 minutes, I did the treadmill, 15 minutes on a bike, 10 minutes on an elliptical and 10 more minutes on the treadmill. Round trip I did four miles. Right now, I'm feeling pretty good. I did some trial runs last week and I did a little over the weekend, and today was already better. Hopefully that trend continues.
For breakfast I had:
2 Servings of Protein Plus Special K with milk and a little sugar free Vanilla creamer
1 banana
1 Yoplait Red Raspberry yogurt
2 pieces of Protein Bread with butter
For lunch I had:
8 inches of a Black Forest Ham and Turkey sub with lettuce, tomato, pickles and mustard.
Randomly:
Two 20 oz. bottles of water
working on another liter
a couple of pure protein bars with only 2g of sugar, although I just noticed that they have 200 calories each...
Official weigh-in later, I think.
Today I hit the gym. For 20 minutes, I did the treadmill, 15 minutes on a bike, 10 minutes on an elliptical and 10 more minutes on the treadmill. Round trip I did four miles. Right now, I'm feeling pretty good. I did some trial runs last week and I did a little over the weekend, and today was already better. Hopefully that trend continues.
For breakfast I had:
2 Servings of Protein Plus Special K with milk and a little sugar free Vanilla creamer
1 banana
1 Yoplait Red Raspberry yogurt
2 pieces of Protein Bread with butter
For lunch I had:
8 inches of a Black Forest Ham and Turkey sub with lettuce, tomato, pickles and mustard.
Randomly:
Two 20 oz. bottles of water
working on another liter
a couple of pure protein bars with only 2g of sugar, although I just noticed that they have 200 calories each...
Official weigh-in later, I think.
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